To Do List

• Call Tracy

• Call Tyler

• Call Josh

• Pay for my speeding ticket

• Email my English professor so i can finish my lit perspective papers (due 2 1/2 years ago)

• Call my lawyer (haven't met 'em yet)

• Apply for Biology class (and see if Vanguard still accepts the online class from Coastline)

• Pay Bills -Gas, Electric, Rent, Sallie Mae or "Master", Insurance, Car

• Haircut

• Visit family?

Important Things

Lord You are more precious than silver

Lord You are more costly than gold

Lord You are more beautiful than diamonds

And nothing that I desire compares with You.

I Thought

...we were to be content in all circumstances.  Well I for sure as hell am not.  I went to college four years.  A year and a half later i'm still working at a fast food place trying to pay off loans.  I want to take part in changing the world...but it's just really difficult when you're Sallie Mae's bitch.  Yeah, Saul of Tarsus may have been poorer, more starved, and more beat up than anyone i've ever been in contact with, but at least he wasn't indebted to a loan shark.  He also was living out his calling.  I'm not.  He also lived probably every moment with a sense of purpose.  I tend to forget.  Maybe it's because I wasn't stricken blind by God in order to truly see.  Maybe i'm  simply not putting myself in a place to listen.  Maybe i'm tired and need sleep.  What would Paul say to the person whose made dumb financial/personal decisions/non-decisions (which in itself is a decision) to put himself in the situation to where he is now?  What would Jesus say?  "Don't serve God and mammon?"  But what if you're already a slave of the Mammon-god (Sallie Mae)?  I need prayer, sleep, and a book of questions.  I guess I should learn to be content too.  God, teach me the practical implications of this.

I will achieve this freaking goal!

On my day off tomorrow, I will do more than sit on my ass all day.